how far do we deviate from what we want to be? in focusing on our goals we lose sight of ourselves. how many of us have aimed for what we wanted and done things we would not have normally done to get there? does this process of life harden our hearts, making us build a wall around us to act as a form of protection? does it turn us into the very persona we do not wish ourselves to be? this happens to me occasionally and when it does, i end up with a drastic change in behaviour. like a whole personality swap. i pull back, become someone else, and finally achieve nothing but pain. to find the real me...

we promise ourselves to avoid bad habits, make resolutions to not repeat our parents' mistakes.
a. i won't smoke.
b. i won't gamble.
c. i won't drink.
d. i won't visit prostitutes.
e. i swear i will forever be faithful to my spouse (which is what everyone swears in their wedding vows but most don't follow anyway).
f. i won't be life that guy/girl i hated so much in school.

there are so many things we do not want to be, but do we know what we want to be? what if we listed things that we want to be and followed those instead?
a. i want to benefit society
b. i want to help the needy
c. i want to change the system, to make things better.
d. i want to fall in love.
e. i want to live a full life.
f. i want to have a happy family.

in making goals that causes you to develop positive attitudes, it would benefit you as a person in a whole. ideally that is. would this system work? i hope so...

Bertram awoke @ 7:46 PM with