my biggest mistake in life is most definitely flirting. i do it badly. what makes it worse is that sometimes, i do it unknowingly. either that or i am damn bad at people relations. it usually ends up in me screwing up what could have been a normal friendship. then i change totally. jump into the other personality that just sits in a corner, keeps quiet and hope no one sees me. swinging between the two is not really a good thing. which is why some people think i am a pretty screwed up person. can't really blame them for thinking that way.

what this blog was meant to be, an online journal of sorts, has become more of a confessional cum diary cum scribble pad.

and speaking of scribble pads, to write this down, ever since my friend invited me to join friendster.com and in my boredom i just looked at pages after pages of profiles and added people i know to be friends, i've had weird dreams of the people i added. of all things. must either be the odd shift hours doing duty at sembawang wharves or been eating too much before sleeping. actually woke up to a nightmare at sembawang wharves one night during my rest shift. dunno what was that all about but i woke with a start and actually sat up with my chest gripped with a sort of imaginary (or real?) pain. ouch.

Bertram awoke @ 3:25 AM with