whatever does not kill me will make me stronger.

and so i walk out of this accident an even bigger daredevil haha. but seriously, hey there's risks in everything. if we keep avoiding every risk, we would achieve nothing. i love cycling. i want to become a good cyclist. i believe i can become one. so i do cycle and train and put myself at risk from traffic. so do every national cyclist, triathlete, and aspiring athletes in these fields. lance armstrong trained cycling on the roads, not just doing circles in the velodrome or doing drills on a cycling trainer. so did each and every other athlete. marathon runners dun just run on treadmills and on running tracks. swimmers dun just do laps in a pool. and if every canoeist/kayaker/rower/sailor did did training in calm waters, how would they learn how to handle rough choppy waters? skill comes not only from practice but experience. name me an F1 driver that has not spun out or crashed before even once in his career. rare to find. and those who have not done so are not usually among the top. i want to achieve something. so i have to do what i must while keeping the risks in mind. and that's life.

Bertram awoke @ 8:50 PM with (0) flashes of inspiration

sian. appointment with the orthopaediatrist. he says i need to have a cast for 3 months. and i might need an operation to prevent arthritis. sheesh... 20 yrs old and i have arthritis. what a terribly exciting prospect...

my source of pain. it made me superman for all of 5 seconds. a matrix moment when i saw my wheelset disintegrate before my eyes.







Bertram awoke @ 6:25 PM with (0) flashes of inspiration

typing with one hand is quite shitty. fractured my left wrist while cycling home from camp. crashed big time. saw my front wheel disintegrate. now my wrist is in a cast, plus moving my fingers hurt like hell. abrasion wounds hurt too. argh... 6 to 8 weeks of no cycling. sian. but... i can still run~! haha.

i was like the only cheery face in the A&E department of tan tock seng hospital. quite positive about my injury and talking to the staff nurse in triage and the doc in consultation. doc couldn't believe i wanted as short an mc as possible and i didn't want to have a stay home mc. small consolation was at least both the doc and nurse were cute. >_< haha. and yes they were female in case you were wondering about my sexual deviation.



Bertram awoke @ 8:20 AM with (0) flashes of inspiration

praise and worship before each service is wonderful. every time i sing it just brings tears to my eyes. i want to cry inexplicably. that's that.

cycling has become part of me. one with me. each time i cycle is a time to spend alone with God. talking with him on the trip, praying to him. no one could ask for a better cycling partner than Him.

Bertram awoke @ 8:36 PM with (0) flashes of inspiration

meditation. the most effective form of focusing and resting of the mind. how to rest in 4 or 5 hours, and feel like you have slept for 7.

i now cycle as a form of commuting to and from camp. cheaper and healthier, if you don't factor in vehicle exhaust... *yuck*

Bertram awoke @ 11:23 AM with (0) flashes of inspiration