it's the end of the month. a month has passed and so has 6 weeks of school.looking back, i have not done very much, nor have learnt very much. in that 6 weeks if i trained consistently everyday i would have been taking part in the NIE biathlon at least. but i did not. lazy? or just lethargic? or afraid of failing...

"I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer."
--- Bene Gesserit saying, from "Dune" by Frank Herbert

it paralyses you, makes you doubt, slows you down, leaving nothing but wash in it's wake. how do you overcome something intangible and natural to you? you cannot destroy it, for it has no substance. you cannot banish it, for it has no corporeal form. it is but something we have to conquer, to control, and ultimately use to spur ourselves on. pressure makes performance drop, but it is also what gets things started. if you never start, what makes you think you can't do it? do not think that you would fail before you start doing, or else you would subconsciously doom yourself to failure in whatever you do.

anyways... pain in the arse. my digital camera's ccd (charged couple device) is spoilt i think. got to send it for repair. sigh...


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