OK back to basics time. my math abilities really SUCK. i see the question, sort of know how to do but i just can't follow through. it really is a PITA. sigh... i really need to practice more, study more, and build up fundamentals. only way to excel, or in my case, *survive*. i do not really like math, even though the teachers are pretty okay. my math lecturer sorta talks to himself but well i think at least he knows what he is saying. it's just that we don't get it, or rather us as students are very passive. my math tutor however is very liberal as well as practical. i like him and he might be a little direct but he is a good teacher. kinda like my physics tutor, who by the way also likes to expound on the philosophy of learning. he inspires me to learn math. i just hope i can keep that interest going.

on that note i would like to say that some of the professors here are actually quite good, as in they discourage rote learning and memorisation, something the singapore education system as well as the mentalities of parents and students believe is the only way to learn. sorta like once you rememebr you remember for life sort of thing. i never liked rote learning. i have too short of an attention span to devote to that anyway. it is a monotonous, time consuming process that brings little to no benefit to the student. nothing is learnt. sometimes maybe they learn something but not the essence of it, or do not go throught the correct thought and logic pathways. sigh. how to go through things without rote learning. really hard to break out of a mould.

breaking out. how difficult is it for one to break free from a mould that we have been cast in by our parents and relatives. a mould formed by the inculcation of their values, both good and bad. and when we break free, or think we have broken free, the million-dollar-question would be this. "what next?"

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