ok it's late at night and this came to mind and i want to get it off my chest...

sometimes when you dream, do you have vague dreams of someone? and this person is who you hope to see when you wake up each morning, the one you hope to hug to sleep each night. the presence that replaces your bolsters and soft toys... who is this person... who moves your heart so?

this feeling irks me... it just makes me hurt. because it is a vague fleeting image, it just tickles your senses, teasing and tempting you with a sliver of the truth. just who is it? it pains me to not know.... curiosity hurts.

i know who to put in that place right now. just so that you know.

i just feel so emotionally affected right now... i am such a sucker for sappy cliched plot devices. but there is always this part of me that wants to be in that story right now. to live that role. i don't want to sleep. i want to dream again. a vivid clear dream where i know what i am doing. can't remember the last time i had such a dream.


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