i woke up in the morning with a panic attack. an "oh my god what am i doing with my life and what is the future going to be like i just want to kill myself to stay in this reality" panic attack. it was just terrible. thankfully i snapped out of it, else i would really have killed myself.

well october has come and is nearly gone. exams are going to happen, and i feel like this semester is going to be a total washout. ah well... what can i say. fark the grades man. give me a meaningful life any day. sure keeps the panic attacks away.

Bertram awoke @ 11:06 PM with (1) flashes of inspiration